One Good Earl Deserves a Lover - Sarah MacLean

So I started this today and I am starting to wonder if I can make it all the way through. The author gives us the inner thoughts of the male lead in the first chapter as he converses with the lead female. Though I'm sure the author didn't intend for my mind to color in the details the way I have, I cannot seem to undo what I've started. So now instead of the "sexy" thoughts displaying the prowess of the male lead, I hear: